A year have gone on 23rd August 2006, 1 week before my bday. Found out everything bout him! I am moving on but why i am still thinking bout him? Really hate this feeling! Why am i loving him so much while he don't deserve me?
Why am i too late to find out everything?! Why do he have to lie to me & wanna know me? Why do he have to show his love & concern if he said he don't love me! Why do he have to make all the surprises to make me happy! Why after a year only all things happen? & why it have to be ME!
What have i done wrong or mistakes in my life? Am i lack of beauty in me or not enough sexy? Or i have a bad attitude or character? In each every outing, i will dress up & i want to look beautiful when i am with him! I wanna make him feel proud to have me! He did say that his proud to be with me but thats all meaningless. His words is just not enough! He always say if only i'd know you earlier! Everything is just too late.
By now, i guess his happily married! Ya thanks to him for showing me whats love & whats life! Hate him again & again!
I am still the same person which have a heart of stone, easy to like someone & difficult to fall in love! No more tears but just dark memories to be left behind. I wanna still be in love & to be love! Life goes on, i am & i do!
Blogs to go on my bday bash wait till i have the pixes from Eqa!
