Something Amiss

These few days, i felt exhausted. I had to wake up earlier than my usual timing. Cooked in the morning for my siblings and nieces, make my own coffee and ensure everything is ok before heading to work.

I missed my parents especially mum. I missed her coffee, she will packed food for my lunch every morning. And I missed those times she used to nag at me.

Today morning i have to prepare packed food for my sis and for myself. I really felt something missing.

I just can't stop holding my tears. Maybe some people don't understand why i am emotional. It is because mum never go for a long trip apart from the pilgrimage to Mecca, that was about 11 years ago.

I prayed for their safety. I just can't wait for them to return.

Gonna Be Better

Today I just completed my 2nd exam. Right after i finished it, i knew that i won't be able to make it! Its not that i didn't do the revision but out of sudden, my mind is blank! And the worse of all, the subject that i revised, everything comes out. Its like a nightmare. Sigh..

I really need to prepare now and retake this exam.. Pray for me!!!

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I wanna run as much as i can,
Trying not look back..
But i dunno why i am still here..
It cuts like a knife,
The pain is unbearable..
Learn as much as i could,
To let go everything i had..
I don't deserve this..
I hate this part here..

Bitter but Sweet

Sometimes i almost give up
but thinking of those sweet things happened,
i cast aside those unhappiness..
Sometimes i sat down and think,
am i asking too much?
Or am i being egotistic?
Am i frustated with work & study?
But i thought i am..
Seeing you today with a stalk of flower,
and a card saying 'I'm sorry baby'..
The tears rolling down,
and i became speechless..
Nevertheless you are still the person i love..
Thank you for brightened up my day..

No words...

I truly understand you..
The utter words deeply hurt..
Deep down inside you're the only one..
No more words, but i knew, i knew it...

Looking for time...

Its been almost 24/7 spending my time doing work. Not enough time in the office, got to bring back home. Aaaarrggghhh... Dateline here & there, i am getting no life..

I have to divide my time for study too. Examination is around the corner. Hopefully that i can make it, insyallah..

I've been having backache, tension headace & anxiety for the past few weeks... I felt abit better this week after taking Baby's advice.

I just hope that everyday will be a good day for me! Pray with me...

I'm Relieved

After a few months of planning, the day has arrived. I'm glad that baby's bday goes well. Thanks to his familia for their effort. I really appreciate it..

I won't forget how surprised he was especially those smiles on his face.
Happy Bday Baby... I love ya very much...

I hope you will still believe that i am for real dear... *muackzzz*